My new love

I'm not sure if it was the stressful birth or the fact that Jane went immediately to the NICU and spent 5 days there, or if I simply didn't know what to expect as a first time mom but I somehow missed out on the instant mother-child bond when Jane was born. That bond certainly came later, but I had been hoping and praying that I could feel that bond at this little guy's birth. And this time was much different.

First of all, as Matt has already detailed, I had my picture perfect labor and delivery. Admitted at 4 am, epidural by 5:30, pushing by 7:30 and baby in my arms at 7:54. I really enjoyed the time between 5:30 and 7:30, as I was able to think about and chat with Matt about the excitement of what was happening. For me it was the perfect setting to meet my new little son. I loved meeting this new special person for the first time. I fell in love instantly. And I loved staying at the hospital with just me and the new little love in my life. Our first week home has been great. Matt was able to stay home and it's been a nice time for our family. I think the post-birth adrenaline is starting to fade though, because as I woke up this morning I felt like I had been hit by a semi-truck.

Anyway, enough sentimentality. Here are some pictures of Jack at one week old.



So far Jane has been handling the change like a champ. She has been very agreeable and good natured. The day after Jack came home she woke up in the morning as usual. A few minutes later she remembered and said, "The baby's here!" And wanted to go see him. She often asks to hold the baby but especially enjoys him when he is awake. She brings him pretend food and has him pretend to eat it. She also likes to put her pink floral doll blanket on him.



Now if only babies could remain as sleepy and good-natured as they are in their first week of life. I'm anxious to see just what kind of baby he will be but at least I know I love him and want to keep him.